yeah.
( 04.13.2004 )
i keep telling myself that this isn't like school. there's a lot more commitment to this..
i'm talking about work.
i know i could never ever bring myself to call in 'sick' when i'm really not, but it's tempting sometimes. especially when there's a lump in your throat and your eyes are constantly red and filling up with tears. argh. i'm having such a mixture of feelings.. it's between being pissed off at myself and just sad. and who am i really going to tell? i just keep digging my nails into my skin until the lump in my throat subsides and i feel more in control.
