well all's not well but i'm told it'll all be quite nice
( 01.13.2004 )
i feel so drained lately. i want to talk to people, but my mind blanks out, or else i simply don't want to say anything. (yes, i realize the first & last statement nearly contradict each other completely)
i highly dislike the feeling that i am doing nothing. though i realize i'm trying to make progress, it just seems like a slow process. i don't know. i feel so.. worthless after awhile. some floating blob that's wasting space. blajtgfds i'm tired. all i want is an interview; at least then i am given a chance.
i'm crossing my fingers for a job at this record store. at least then i would be surrounded by PURE LOVE [music] and people that i never thought would live in _______ !! gah.
in other news, i like to piss off people on the road.. but only those who i feel deserve it:
the speed limit is 30mph.
a guy speeds up, thinking "i'll pass whoever that is in front of me."
what do i do? i speed up.
he responds with even more increased speed.
i'm getting far too close to 50mph.
he changes lanes and hugs my bumper.
i brake constantly.
he zips into the other lane and
i LET him pass.
..and that was my story for the night.
