& the God of everything that is whispered in my ear that His love is boundless
( 08.19.2003 )
i hate this waiting. this distance. this time. the days are spread so thickly - i'm supposed to trudge through them without you? my impatience is eating me alive.
i remember when you told me
"jenny, you're okay."
over -&- over.
words escaped me. it's sad how difficult it is to believe something so small. so miniscule.
and it kills me that the only reason i'm not bombarding him with "i love you's" is his lack of faith. if it wasn't for that, i would know for sure. there wouldn't be maybe's or if's.
perhaps i went to sleep so early last night because i was tired of thinking.
