it's all i ever talk about in here.
( 08.10.2003 )
my psychologist told me that i'm so young that i shouldn't be thinking so seriously in a relationship -- that i shouldn't get so wrapped up in someone. i understand that his warning is simply of caution, but then i end up not telling him how deeply involved i'm becoming. i almost think he'll only belittle what i'm feeling. just play it off - as though it's something that will pass.
you know. maybe i am foolish. but i've never been so hesitant to say "i love you" -- i'm not even thinking of me anymore. it's just everything. it isn't all about feeling good and having fun. there are serious decisions that come into play. i never really thought so thoroughly before.
"is it real?" // hope so.
